Knight — two dimples, olive skin, deep blue eyes, and an indescribable sweetness I've never met. He looks just like his older sister and is perfect in every way. We connect immediately in the OR as the doctor pulls him from the same scar where his brother and sister entered the world and took their first breaths. The scar that has taught me so much – how powerful the female body is, how to be gentle and gracious with myself, and how beautiful the imperfections really are. Over the years, my appreciation for this beauty mark has grown and today I feel that emotion so deeply.
He knows me. He knows my voice, my smell, and he’s totally peaceful once in my arms. I feel like we’ve known each other for a lifetime and in that moment we’re the only two on earth, the only thing that matters. He immediately latches, and we are one.
Newborn life is everything all at once. Even through the magic of our bubble, I’m quickly reminded how raw and tender these first few weeks of postpartum are. As women, we are sold a fairytale and so much of it does feel to be just that, but there is also another reality to pregnancy, birth, and postpartum. As a mother of three (still getting used to that one!) and someone who has been in both places, it’s important to me to share both sides. Ultimately, it can be both the fairytale bliss and a complete crash all at the same time…AND THAT’S OKAY.
There is a sense of restlessness and peace that settles in as we leave the hospital. The world feels perfectly complete and utterly chaotic simultaneously. These first few hours and days together hold a multitude of emotions and beginnings, and I try to stay present for each and every one.
Some realities, however, are easier to stay present to than others. I’ve forgotten about the fatigue, exhaustion, pain, soreness, night sweats (oh the night sweats!) and the throb of my boobs transitioning into giant watermelons. This time around, the baby fog has been so intense. I’ve become shit at making decisions. Maybe that’s the two toddlers, or how quickly I know I’ll be jumping back into work, or just the sheer fact of my third abdominal surgery in three years. Even trying to decide something as simple as what’s for dinner feels almost impossible. My concentration is fleeting, and it’s hard not to feel like I’m always just one step behind—like I’m mentally wading through waist-deep water.
"These days I’m living in the realm of “both/and”. I’m exhausted, and deliriously happy. I’m both teary, and grateful. My body is both sore and healing, and it’s strong and resilient. I’m overwhelmed by the day-to-day, and still feel a deep sense of peace that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be."
Of course, there’s a sense of beautiful joy at meeting my son, gratitude for our health, and deep love, but it’s coupled with lingering dips of vulnerability and an acute sense of my own limitations.
My nervous system feels overloaded and frayed. I’m easily startled and more anxious than normal as we transition into home life. I assure myself that it will all settle as sleep resumes and a schedule takes shape. If I’m honest, it’s hard to be patient and trust that this, too, is part of the postpartum process. It’ll just take time as I regulate, in the meantime I try to give myself grace and stay present.
I’ve been through this postpartum journey twice before now, and yet it still feels surprising and new. Maybe because I’m not who I was two years ago? I’ve grown, changed, made mistakes and failed, dreamed bigger, built more, and loved harder. Of course it’ll take time to settle into this new world, this world where Knight is here snuggling, cooing and nestling just beside me. And I’m so glad he’s here…I’m so glad he’s mine.
As I’m drifting back to sleep I remind myself of this…
These days I’m living in the realm of “both/and”. I’m exhausted, and deliriously happy. I’m both teary, and grateful. My body is both sore and healing, and it’s strong and resilient. I’m overwhelmed by the day-to-day, and still feel a deep sense of peace that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be. Here in the pile of diapers, with a million half-full glasses of water littered around my house, soft baby cheeks pressed against my chest, and nights where Madison and I collapse into each other at the end of the day— here’s where we’re home. Here’s where I belong.
Bruno Jayvee
BITCOIN RECOVERY IS VERY MUCH REAL AM A LIVING TESTIMONY
Good day everyone on the internet. Do you require assistance getting back your lost or stolen ETH, Bitcoin, or other cryptocurrency? Many people have written about how THE HACKANGELS RECOVERY EXPERT helped them recover their cryptocurrency. I invested $1.3 million into a cryptocurrency platform. I visited different web pages and read a lot of reviews and testimonies about THE HACKANGELS RECOVERY EXPERT. I willingly decided to give them a try and it was the best choice I’ve ever made. And the job was done within 48 hours. I feel so fortunate to have been able to get the right team otherwise I have no idea what could’ve become of me. Their exceptional skills and intelligence make them one of the best cyber hackers in the industry. With their expertise in cryptocurrency and Bitcoin recovery, they have assisted numerous individuals in recovering their lost funds. I promised to inform everyone about their service. If I don’t share my testimony then I will be selfish and ungrateful. You can also get in touch with them through their hotline:
WhatsApp (+1(520)200-2320 ), or shoot them an email at (support@thehackangels.com) They also have a great website at (www.thehackangels.com)
If you’re in London, you can even visit them in person at their office located at 45-46 Red Lion Street, London WC1R 4PF, UK. They’re super helpful and really know their stuff! Don’t hesitate to reach out if you need help. I recommend them as a genuine hacker
Bruno Jayvee
BITCOIN RECOVERY IS VERY MUCH REAL AM A LIVING TESTIMONY
Good day everyone on the internet. Do you require assistance getting back your lost or stolen ETH, Bitcoin, or other cryptocurrency? Many people have written about how THE HACKANGELS RECOVERY EXPERT helped them recover their cryptocurrency. I invested $1.3 million into a cryptocurrency platform. I visited different web pages and read a lot of reviews and testimonies about THE HACKANGELS RECOVERY EXPERT. I willingly decided to give them a try and it was the best choice I’ve ever made. And the job was done within 48 hours. I feel so fortunate to have been able to get the right team otherwise I have no idea what could’ve become of me. Their exceptional skills and intelligence make them one of the best cyber hackers in the industry. With their expertise in cryptocurrency and Bitcoin recovery, they have assisted numerous individuals in recovering their lost funds. I promised to inform everyone about their service. If I don’t share my testimony then I will be selfish and ungrateful. You can also get in touch with them through their hotline:
WhatsApp (+1(520)200-2320 ), or shoot them an email at (support@thehackangels.com) They also have a great website at (www.thehackangels.com)
If you’re in London, you can even visit them in person at their office located at 45-46 Red Lion Street, London WC1R 4PF, UK. They’re super helpful and really know their stuff! Don’t hesitate to reach out if you need help. I recommend them as a genuine hacker
SCHWARTZ RECOVERY HACKERS SERVICES
Hi everyone, I made a promise to myself that I was going to come back here and testify about the great job of Schwartz Software Hackers Services , schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram at gmail dot com
did for me with their magnificent hacking skills, they didn’t just get back my scammed money i invested with a fake investment company that was almost $810.000 but to my greatest surprised I got back the money I invested but they also use their sophisticated skills to get even more than the money I invested that was found in the scam wallet during the period of recovery the transfer all the funds back to my wallet which was even more than I expected. If you have been wondering and looking for a way to get back your scammed funds of any kind, I will suggest you quickly get in contact with schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram@gmail.com or you can also get in touch with them through telegram.
Email: (schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram@gmail.com)
WhatsApp : +44 77 41 26 48 51
Telegram : https://t.me/schwartzsoftwarehackers
Website; https://schwartzsoftwareha.wixsite.com/website
CORNER STONE
Hi everyone, I made a promise to myself that I was going to come back here and testify about the great job of Schwartz Software Hackers Services , schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram at gmail dot com
did for me with their magnificent hacking skills, they didn’t just get back my scammed money i invested with a fake investment company that was almost $810.000 but to my greatest surprised I got back the money I invested but they also use their sophisticated skills to get even more than the money I invested that was found in the scam wallet during the period of recovery the transfer all the funds back to my wallet which was even more than I expected. If you have been wondering and looking for a way to get back your scammed funds of any kind, I will suggest you quickly get in contact with schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram@gmail.com or you can also get in touch with them through telegram.
Email: (schwartzsoftwarehackingprogram@gmail.com)
WhatsApp : +44 77 41 26 48 51
Telegram : https://t.me/schwartzsoftwarehackers
Website; https://schwartzsoftwareha.wixsite.com/website
Fallon William
TRACING AND RECOVERY LOST CRYPTO FROM SCAMMERS ONLINE
🌟 Testimonial Alert! 🌟
Hi, everyone! I am Fallon and I just had to share an incredible experience with you all. Like many of you, I was drawn to the idea of investing in Bitcoin and other cryptocurrencies. Unfortunately, I fell victim to a few online scammers pretending to be reputable investment platforms. It was devastating to lose my hard-earned money and feel like there was no hope of getting it back.
That’s when I discovered Cryptify Wallet Recovery. After hearing positive reviews, I decided to give them a try, and it was the best decision I could have made. Their team was professional, responsive, and incredibly knowledgeable. They worked tirelessly to help me recover my lost funds, and I am thrilled to say they succeeded!
If you or someone you know has fallen victim to online fraud or crypto scams, don’t hesitate to reach out to them. Here’s how you can get in touch:
📧 Email: cryptifywalletrecoveryconsulta@gmail.com
📞 WhatsApp: +1 647-930-9406
📲 Telegram: @Cryptifyrecovery
https://www.cyptifywalletrec.com/
I can’t thank Cryptify Wallet Recovery enough for restoring my peace of mind and financial stability. Trust me, they’re the real deal! 💯
#CryptoRecovery #CryptifyWalletRecovery #BitcoinScamHelp